A fly in the ocean

It's one of those moments when you feel like a little fly in the ocean: No reason to be there, not a clue what to do next. Looking at the waves and moving along with them might lead to a , so far, unknown destination.

What would you do if you were a fly in the ocean?

Define the situation

"Been there done that" you say and move on to your next "adventure". Have you ever thought that you need to look things over once more before you give up on them?

If Yes good for you.

If  Not bad for the people around you.

and now?

   You are a mess and you decide that it's time you stopped blaming your luck and start over and yes, of course it's not over yet....The moment you decide to move on the reason for which you were a mess comes back to hit you in the head. The first time it's jus to remind you of ti's excitence, the second time is about you deciding if you are to move on or work it out with "the reason".
   You take the first choice you'll never know what would have happened if you had given it a second chance and probably stay with the same questiob and regret for the rest of your life...What if?
   Choice number 2?Points you directly to the great conversation where things need to be solved or done for good, at least you'll know what you gave up on...But for the believers of the second chance, like me, there is the future just ahead and will show what's going to happpen after all these..
One thing is for sure:

We live with the choice we make. There is no turning back.

get yourself together

     There are moments in our lives when you don't know what to do next. Most of the things in your life go through a tough time friends, family, even yourself can work out problems or figure out how to hep others. The last aprt goes for me at least. When your one of your best friends feels so lonely and insecure you need to lend her/him a hand, when a person in your family goes through a rough patch you need to be there for her/him and after all these you need to see what else is going on in your own life. I don't manage well in the last section. Worrying about everything and everyone just doesn't work out very good for me, but sure enough i can't just stand there and do nothing, that's not me anyway.
    So, what needs to be done now? That sure is a great question, to which i can't find a satisfying response. Everyone deals with stuff like that in their one way and i have a plan in my mind, but not about it's results since plans don't always work the way you want them to. I'll try to deal with one problem at a time, but this hasn't worked very good for me, at least for the time being.

However, the most important thing i need to do is:

Save myself, let the best parts of my characters in the outside, stop the miserable look.